This may sound awkward, but my anger is something more realistic. It is about team-based school work. I was pretty sure I had enough experience in dealing with team projects from high school, but the team projects here in college are not like those I experienced before. I had to be discreet simultaneously in terms of making my individual efforts and working as a group. It would be a lie if I completely deny that I have a tendency to scrutinize my work during team projects. I am satisfied after I check all the group project materials, even if I am sure that the other members will handle them their best. I mean, I do not really have to be picky about the group work when there are other members assigned to do it, but I just cannot stop myself. I haven’t found ways to resolve this tendency yet, but I hope to find one before I graduate. 


   
 
I do not usually get mad, but there is one source of anger that frequently makes me upset—myself. To be specific, my rigid standards considering my life ethics and relationship with others upset me. I know that I should not expect the same attitude and generosity from other people that I have given to them, but I always resort to blankly believing that others think like me. I reach moments of anger when facing people who seem to take advantage of my generosity. Although I know that I should never blame others for giving me such scars, I cannot refrain from expecting the same kind or response and generosity that I have given to them. Maybe I will continue to be kind and generous to others and get scarred by people who do not do the same to me, but in the end I hope to feel less pain as I grow older. 


   
 
For me, moments when anger takes over are very clear; they are when I find myself lethargically wasting time. What makes me frustrated is that I don't know what to do with those seconds that pass by meaninglessly. Then a friend of mine inspired me to change. He taught me to challenge myself. His meaning of challenge was to take part in various activities, whatever the reason may be. This led me to my very first extracurricular activity, KUchina. At first, I signed up simply to make my summer vacation useful, but in the end it turned out to be much more fruitful than I had expected. Thanks to KUchina, I am now even capable of speaking fluent Mandarin Chinese. Thanks to that experience and my friend, I now spend every second looking for a chance to change. When anger takes over your useless self, try out something new. An inspiring friend might come in handy! 



 

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